Heh.

Yesterday afternoon I signed up for the Raindance Independent Author Book Fair.  It's something I wanted to do - truly for the last 2 months since I found out about it.  Last night I spent the majority of the evening trying to talk myself out of it.

See, here's my dilemma.

As an independent author, I've go no one but my readers to get feedback from.  I have no way of knowing what I'm doing right or wrong.  I've sold books, which is great - no a lot, but some - but I've only had 5 reviews on amazon.  Less on goodreads.  Does this mean that the purchases were pity purchases?  Some perhaps.  Some were by my friends just to show support - some were by those who will actually read the book.  The reviews I have to believe were honest, and not just ego boosts.

As I head into this book faire, I have that crushing feeling that THIS is where I'll be found out.  I'll be laughed at, and looked at as not a real writer (which the logical side of my brain feels is tremendously ridiculous as EVERYONE there is independent - not just me...

I guess I have one giant case of the nerves!

I've got some ideas for my half of the table.  I've got some idea of a display and I'm desperate to purchase a pair of Manolos for it - even just for the display to be returned the following day...  I don't think I'm quite that desperate - I'll come up with something else clever...  perhaps a couple of drag queens standing behind me fanning me??  Handing out bon bons??

We'll see...